My Story…

15 plus years of facing near-death circumstances is now almost half of my life…

From surviving suicidal attempts/thoughts/desires at an early age to Doctors giving up on me; stating their common phrase, “there is nothing that I can do” to me praying to God to die because not even doses of morphine or injections or medications could ease the pain in my body; I became an experiment in the lab. To waking up repeatedly; angry that I was breathing, wondering why am I alive after I prayed that God would give my breath to someone else or simply just let me die? To being so broken inside because I knew that God had the power to take me, but He just wouldn’t. I often thought, why am I here? I would say all of the time; “I didn’t ask to be here,” so I began to hate the idea of living; I felt that life wasn’t for me. Earth seemed so strange, I didn’t fit anywhere and any place that I thought that I would fit, the enemy assigned people to bully me into a corner until I decided that I still don’t want to live. So the idea of death became traumatically peaceful for me and I developed the perspective that death will be the only peace that I will ever have. Death seemed so easy to me, but yet it grieved me as a child to think of leaving my parents behind. But each and every-time that I would come to the agreement of death, I would see; feel the Lord’s hand. It was the Lord who revealed to me how he held me with his hand to life and that no one who did not give me my breath could take my breath. That I will only leave this earth until it is time for me to go home to be with Him after my purpose is fulfilled in the earth.

It was 2018 in the Corporate Woods parking lot that the Lord gave me the idea of a blog entitled “LABRIA LIVES.” I always could see today, but it was so blurry. Dying internally; Damaged, I allowed distractions, idols, demonic connections, deceptive voices and the illusion of defeat to keep me from moving forth with this blog.

6 years later, at 30 years old, I felt the Lord pushing me and telling me that “It is time to release your blog, Labria Lives.” I panicked! Within days to weeks, the time sped by and I asked for at least three extensions. But “We,” Me, My Father (My Dad), Son and the Holy Spirit are aligned and so I’ve been prepared to release what they have been revealing.

My Father said, “Your writing is worship to me. You have a scribes anointing.” So, not only will you read, but He wanted me to share publicly that the beauty that you see standing was shaped in the dark. The great anointing that you experience, cost a whole lot.

All the while. One by one. Tear by tear, near death by near death, the Lord was shaping me like clay. 

I ask that you walk this journey with me as I reveal Life! Let’s expose the enemy, set the captives free and unlock.

I come as a reminder that our Redeemer Lives! I come as a sign: by sight, sound and symbol to LIVE! 

I’ll be revealing… 

O R I G I N.

_{Photographer: Chris Johnson}